Finally a Recap

I wonder if I would make this a habit at the end of every trimester.. ! The fact that I'm contemplating on penning down thoughts about it depicts that it does atleast deserve a post.. The trimester 2 started for me in the flight from Bangalore to Delhi , rushing from my cousin's engagement to the airport around 5pm where I got a call from one of my friends that I had to fill a 8 page long form with all kinds of essays to be submitted by 12 am ,You see Beggars are not choosers( you would know why as you read on) and I had to make sure that I submit this form to atleast have a shot at the company for the summers. I filled the form during the travel, though the essays were thought provoking I did not have the time to provoke thoughts midair and filled it with my best possible creativity. I reached hostel at 11.30 pm ,stuck my photo onto the form and submitted it at 12 am at the batchmeet where the first company on campus for the morning had been announced.Guess what I hadnt even applied( not that it made a difference.)

So the dream week went on (4-5 companies),we oldies did not get shortlisted anywhere, saw freshers get ample chances,though results were never announced that week + the company for which I filled the form religiously in the flight did not shortlist me either. According to me 4 days in the Auditorium was best summed up by "Suit Boot me Aaya Kanaaya Band Bajaane ko " . thats what we all did - took bath,wore suits,looked good and did not even get shortlisted and went back to hostel . Soon it was sunday,so that week came to a close, . The new week would have officially kicked off with Day zero . The day of dreams . I just did not know what to do on sunday - ofcourse I was not shortlisted for another dream company that day . I remember my roomies studying that day and also majority of the people in the batch were, but I found a few like minded people and we left for a movie "Inglorious Bastards" . Came back in the night and knew after the batchmeet where 16 companies for the day were announced that I couldnt create a miracle in 6 hours so I was better off sleeping . The clock struck 7 and for a change it was me who woke the rest ,we headed to the auditorium . The first shortlist of the day was announced and as usual my fate did not change .

It was around 8.40 am when I was just strolling around our huge and ofcourse crowded auditorium at that time when my name was announced in a shortlist and guess what it was one of those companies for which I had a secret desire for . Attended its presentation during which I told myself " that this should be it" ,"you cant goof this up " and after 30 minutes of an interview ,I was satisfied with myself, I did not even bother checking other shortlists after that, I was rather attending company presentations. not that I was sure about my selection but i think it was just that I was happy with my interview and I guess in reality the mere fact that I got a shortlist :D and an intusion of making it to the company.

I got a call around 3 pm for a second round from the company. 4 of us managed the call .Though I was disappointed as I was never ready for another round . I had closed shop for the day plus the other 3 were extremely good .It wouldnt have been easy overcoming these guys. But guess what the second round was a "spot offer" and nothing could have pleased me more. The first people to get placed on day zero and that too with spot offers and highest package! I remember returning to the auditorium where everyone waits for their shortlist ,it almost felt like a warrior returning from the battlefield and being greeted on victory.

I sincerely hoped during that week that everyone got placed, cuz thats how it is here everyone is freaking good here,but the market wasn't still . Weeks which followed were somber followed by some ecstatic - parties which one wouldn't forget, definitely there cant be better b schools in India for the Night parties ,as commented by some outsiders as well and thats a fact which I endorse too . UWL followed which I again believe is one of the best concepts in the country ,it really is a combination of sports ,marketing,finance & management.My team lifted the cup , and I believe there couldnt be a better feeling than this in sports.

Quovadis- the management festival of IIFT was conducted. I slogged like crazy for this one. Missed classes,sleep,food everything for a couple of weeks to get the website running . The vendor was a real pain but in the end the website ran ok , though the fest could have been way better. Competitions happened .Made it to couple of finals ,also ended up runners up in a major event, though I must admit my contribution here was less. Only that my team members are too humble and still hold on to the claim that I was a contributer.Trim came almost to an end. Projects came up . Group assignments happened .Opinions about people changed . You certainly dont get easy and straightforward people everywhere, this time it was really tough to handle and is still .

Projects were a pain this time but we managed them ,exams were even bigger a pain, dont know if I managed them . In the end I just wanted them to end and wanted to be here typing this post about a long and eventful trimester. Definitely I have only mentioned 50% of the things that happened last trimester. The dyanmics of things within IIFT is mysterious and I still maintain that Life at IIFT is in the beholder's eye and certain things are either too silly/ or need lot of explanation before they are shared here cuz they dont make sense .

I hear that trimester 3 is the toughest in IIFT, and coincidently I feel like doing a lot of other things this trimester. God-Please save me in trimester 2 (past) and Trimester 3 (present) . Hopefully this time when I fly back to Delhi ,I wouldn't have to start my trimester midair :D

The change..

to say the least... things change from today( 5.30 am)..after lot of contemplation..& conclusions..

too tired & dissapointed ..rest laters...

Return

Its been long since I have last posted here.. ! Well to begin with an honest analysis ,life has not changed much since then.. except for the fact that the environment is different but the dynamics always remain the same. I'm not sure what stops me each time from crossing continents ,its been happening since jan 2008.I still do not have an answer to this question .But I must confess that life is monotonous in this place. I just feel I'm living an extended version of engineering whether classes, hostels or anything for that matter..yes you are more professional here ,though all the professionalism ends with just 2 pints .

I do miss the last 7 years of my life more than anything else,but I have come to terms with almost everything now. The feeling has sunk in..and I know I need to move on(though thats not happening easily).Everybody moves on and I 'm trying hard too .. though I'm really slow at this.Certain things need to be accepted as early as possible to clearly be able to understand your own position & not be in an illusion ,reality is what stays with you .

I might be on the lower side of things today, but i'm confident that I'm going to be there soon and I can feel it in the air ,'Someday i'm going to make it' is not applicable to me . 'Very soon I'd make it ' is apt.. and I'd make sure it comes true.

yours truly.

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10.35 pm 

I'm wondering as to why I did not give a title to this post of mine ! A handful of people actually understand the purpose of blogging,unfortuantely i dont come in  that category.Microblogging - Twitter is a site which was made for  lackadaiscal souls like me  who would just not bother to visit their own blog in months. My idea of succesful social blogging  is on similar lines with a orkut,facebook profile with 300 friends , 2500 scraps , wall-wall  conversations which go beyond walls &  finally a dip in activity with no appreciable social networking which  is applicable to a social blog  with 100s posts , 10000 commments , 1000+ subscribers , for e.g  I truly appreciated the power of blogging during the ipl when the fake ipl player caught the eye of the indian public and the guy had 8000 subscribers in like 1 week ,the ipl ended and the fake blog too ended and the enthusiasm receded.  Unfortunately I dont even get to read blogs of my friends anymore as there are hardly any updates from anyone . Blogging also seems to have lost its charm  atleast momentarily.10.45 pm 

 Break -- 

11.15 pm 

I  must wonder as to what i'm doing on a saturday evening writing on  something which even remotely doesnt connect to me :-) . I guess thats the beauty of  life , saturdays dont belong to me at the moment, while some might watch a movie @ pvr, while others @ lor, and more @  all the possible places  @ blore..I rest under the cover of trees in an island that loves to sleep :-)

 While the rest of the world parties today ,I await my turn .11.18 pm 

 Break --

11.28 pm 

I'm back  after a well deserved break of doing nothing . What excites me the most is that i have developed the art of killing time efficiently it just  takes a day or two to master this art .Whatever I do - has a sense of purpose to it - even lazing around can beat boredom sometimes .

With this - I end my post for the day . I hope I have justified my title .11.34pm

1.I'd never think that I would be posting this here as I had planned to keep this place restricted to the geography & dynamics of the world rather than the dynamics of myself.I'm sorry Blogger.com I could not resist the temptation of pouring my thoughts to u - the only entity which would not refute as I speak today.

2 Till recently use to dream not just for myself but for the world around me,As much as I might sound like a saint today which I most whole heartedly accept that I'm not ,I have always enjoyed being a part of people's success more than being a part of their happiness.Bad times are when people often remember their pals and good times are when they make new pals or stick to their closest of kins/pals.

3.Always remember - you are not the most important person in anyone's life, you are just a helper or a mere friend , dont ever give yourself more air than you actually deserve.

4.The script for my prayers would never again ask for the well beings of pals because I realize that none of my pals ever pray for me :-),

5.Fighting bad times along with your pals does not always imply that he/she need to remember you in good times. Its been a year since a pal of mine saw his trough tranform to a crest ,since then he has been on the crest and never bothered to look back on the trough i.e me today.

6. A pal of mine felt pessimistic about everything until 3.30 am 9th Jan,His life changed since then,that was the last time we really conversed,he did not need me since then .

7. I never thought I'd be editing mba grads resumes,yes i did it almost 4-5 times for a friend of mine,I dont say that it did the trick for him ,undoubtedtly his skill fetched him the job, i was just trying to convey the msg-yes i'm there and I still believe in you. Have I heard from him since then ?I sent him a mail asking for some certifications which I could do . Guess what - I dont have a reply from him till date and even better- he never even bothered to ping me after that.

8. A pal of mine hopefully heads to the US this year, a night of decision during the recession,I gave him my best inputs while my cousin was getting married 200 meteres away from me and was parting ways to her in laws-Yes I missed the ceremony to relieve some nerves from him.Guess what- he now is all set to go and I have not heard from him either,its been 8 months when he first set his eye on the soil of The US of A. I have been a part of his journey all along so far but I'm rest assured once the stamp hits the passport, he'd never remember a tall,lanky dark figure in his life.

9. Now I skip a few more and come to the latest and most unexpected.This one hurt the most from one of closest pals.Could not be a part of this individual's success until today morning. Though I felt happy for her,I felt sad for myself,She did try her best to put forward an explanation but then I could not relate or link the sequence of events she mentioned about last night. Perhaps my IQ not good enough to understand her point of view. I would want to believe that rather than face some facts.This pal of mine has always told me that I have never been of any help and I have been selfish all the time ,I guess she was serious.I believe the few lucky people who knew about her 'luck by chance' last night have significantly been a part of her ups and downs.Obviously I dont have any grudges cuz it is a personal opinion,some choose most do not :-)she should enjoy her success,its her day after all.

10.The last- As soon as I logged into gtalk today - I saw a window pop up and a question on some issue concerning an admit.I smiled this time and said to myself- this is it .. the last time .. i told him the required and logged off.For all those who think I'm acting as if I'm a a superhero saving lives .No your wrong - I'm not, I just tried to be a part of people's lives in whatever small way I could.
Moral of the story :

Very often I have seen people complain about facing new lows in life, very rarely has anyone ever asked me about my state of affairs.I might not have been great help to most of the people I mentioned above ,but atleast i did expect a few courteous gestures from them all.Anyways I'd not change but my perspective about things certainly changes infact has evolved over time.May all Succeed in life !-- ooops I'm not goin to mention this in my prayers anymore cuz I now believe that I need a little more space for myself in my prayers as I really do need it now. They wont pray for me :-).