The change..

to say the least... things change from today( 5.30 am)..after lot of contemplation..& conclusions..

too tired & dissapointed ..rest laters...

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Its been long since I have last posted here.. ! Well to begin with an honest analysis ,life has not changed much since then.. except for the fact that the environment is different but the dynamics always remain the same. I'm not sure what stops me each time from crossing continents ,its been happening since jan 2008.I still do not have an answer to this question .But I must confess that life is monotonous in this place. I just feel I'm living an extended version of engineering whether classes, hostels or anything for that matter..yes you are more professional here ,though all the professionalism ends with just 2 pints .

I do miss the last 7 years of my life more than anything else,but I have come to terms with almost everything now. The feeling has sunk in..and I know I need to move on(though thats not happening easily).Everybody moves on and I 'm trying hard too .. though I'm really slow at this.Certain things need to be accepted as early as possible to clearly be able to understand your own position & not be in an illusion ,reality is what stays with you .

I might be on the lower side of things today, but i'm confident that I'm going to be there soon and I can feel it in the air ,'Someday i'm going to make it' is not applicable to me . 'Very soon I'd make it ' is apt.. and I'd make sure it comes true.

yours truly.

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10.35 pm 

I'm wondering as to why I did not give a title to this post of mine ! A handful of people actually understand the purpose of blogging,unfortuantely i dont come in  that category.Microblogging - Twitter is a site which was made for  lackadaiscal souls like me  who would just not bother to visit their own blog in months. My idea of succesful social blogging  is on similar lines with a orkut,facebook profile with 300 friends , 2500 scraps , wall-wall  conversations which go beyond walls &  finally a dip in activity with no appreciable social networking which  is applicable to a social blog  with 100s posts , 10000 commments , 1000+ subscribers , for e.g  I truly appreciated the power of blogging during the ipl when the fake ipl player caught the eye of the indian public and the guy had 8000 subscribers in like 1 week ,the ipl ended and the fake blog too ended and the enthusiasm receded.  Unfortunately I dont even get to read blogs of my friends anymore as there are hardly any updates from anyone . Blogging also seems to have lost its charm  atleast momentarily.10.45 pm 

 Break -- 

11.15 pm 

I  must wonder as to what i'm doing on a saturday evening writing on  something which even remotely doesnt connect to me :-) . I guess thats the beauty of  life , saturdays dont belong to me at the moment, while some might watch a movie @ pvr, while others @ lor, and more @  all the possible places  @ blore..I rest under the cover of trees in an island that loves to sleep :-)

 While the rest of the world parties today ,I await my turn .11.18 pm 

 Break --

11.28 pm 

I'm back  after a well deserved break of doing nothing . What excites me the most is that i have developed the art of killing time efficiently it just  takes a day or two to master this art .Whatever I do - has a sense of purpose to it - even lazing around can beat boredom sometimes .

With this - I end my post for the day . I hope I have justified my title .11.34pm

1.I'd never think that I would be posting this here as I had planned to keep this place restricted to the geography & dynamics of the world rather than the dynamics of myself.I'm sorry Blogger.com I could not resist the temptation of pouring my thoughts to u - the only entity which would not refute as I speak today.

2 Till recently use to dream not just for myself but for the world around me,As much as I might sound like a saint today which I most whole heartedly accept that I'm not ,I have always enjoyed being a part of people's success more than being a part of their happiness.Bad times are when people often remember their pals and good times are when they make new pals or stick to their closest of kins/pals.

3.Always remember - you are not the most important person in anyone's life, you are just a helper or a mere friend , dont ever give yourself more air than you actually deserve.

4.The script for my prayers would never again ask for the well beings of pals because I realize that none of my pals ever pray for me :-),

5.Fighting bad times along with your pals does not always imply that he/she need to remember you in good times. Its been a year since a pal of mine saw his trough tranform to a crest ,since then he has been on the crest and never bothered to look back on the trough i.e me today.

6. A pal of mine felt pessimistic about everything until 3.30 am 9th Jan,His life changed since then,that was the last time we really conversed,he did not need me since then .

7. I never thought I'd be editing mba grads resumes,yes i did it almost 4-5 times for a friend of mine,I dont say that it did the trick for him ,undoubtedtly his skill fetched him the job, i was just trying to convey the msg-yes i'm there and I still believe in you. Have I heard from him since then ?I sent him a mail asking for some certifications which I could do . Guess what - I dont have a reply from him till date and even better- he never even bothered to ping me after that.

8. A pal of mine hopefully heads to the US this year, a night of decision during the recession,I gave him my best inputs while my cousin was getting married 200 meteres away from me and was parting ways to her in laws-Yes I missed the ceremony to relieve some nerves from him.Guess what- he now is all set to go and I have not heard from him either,its been 8 months when he first set his eye on the soil of The US of A. I have been a part of his journey all along so far but I'm rest assured once the stamp hits the passport, he'd never remember a tall,lanky dark figure in his life.

9. Now I skip a few more and come to the latest and most unexpected.This one hurt the most from one of closest pals.Could not be a part of this individual's success until today morning. Though I felt happy for her,I felt sad for myself,She did try her best to put forward an explanation but then I could not relate or link the sequence of events she mentioned about last night. Perhaps my IQ not good enough to understand her point of view. I would want to believe that rather than face some facts.This pal of mine has always told me that I have never been of any help and I have been selfish all the time ,I guess she was serious.I believe the few lucky people who knew about her 'luck by chance' last night have significantly been a part of her ups and downs.Obviously I dont have any grudges cuz it is a personal opinion,some choose most do not :-)she should enjoy her success,its her day after all.

10.The last- As soon as I logged into gtalk today - I saw a window pop up and a question on some issue concerning an admit.I smiled this time and said to myself- this is it .. the last time .. i told him the required and logged off.For all those who think I'm acting as if I'm a a superhero saving lives .No your wrong - I'm not, I just tried to be a part of people's lives in whatever small way I could.
Moral of the story :

Very often I have seen people complain about facing new lows in life, very rarely has anyone ever asked me about my state of affairs.I might not have been great help to most of the people I mentioned above ,but atleast i did expect a few courteous gestures from them all.Anyways I'd not change but my perspective about things certainly changes infact has evolved over time.May all Succeed in life !-- ooops I'm not goin to mention this in my prayers anymore cuz I now believe that I need a little more space for myself in my prayers as I really do need it now. They wont pray for me :-).

The Russian Rise

If the West seems to be maintaining the stand that Russia invited its own international isolation owing to its deep cut throat policies ,these are just mere signs of shivers across the west and what better can explain them than the 'Russian rise' itself. The justifications of cold war ending with the Soviet unions break up was a gimmick from the west's hat which wanted to assure itself that it was not haunted by the ghosts of the Soviet union which now comes in the form of Russia . If one thinks the Russian economy began to rise during the Putin era ,then one might be mistaken to think so as the revival had well started during the Boris Yeltsin term itself ,though the results not visible then , he certainly saw the future and tailored it perfectly for it be a supreme power to reckon with once again ,though this has been time consuming , the results are showing gradually.

The 'Georgia episode' marked the end of attempted diplomacy from the Russian side towards the west which hardly took part in the Georgian issue and rather looked to be on the other side negating the Russian interests. Now that post coldwar era seems to be ending , another cold war seems to be on the cards . The middleeast would be one region looking forward to a stable Russia in order to counterattack the west , certainly this would imply the beginning of a whole new picture in all

Impact on India -- now the nuclear deal certainly doesn't just signify a historic deal , it adds to the already boiling scenario, the United states played its cards by galloping an emerging power in its bandwagon (India) , and the old allie of the Soviet union seems to have parted ways with it at a time when the friendship could have been mutually beneficial . But for the deal's sake I would say that the ties with the United states would hopefully bring laurels to our country ,but we need to be cautious as our new allie has had a ill reputed past for deserting its allies after its use, hopefully we dont join that club...

Running mates or limping mates??

The first meaningful decision by both the Presidential candidates has been taken , sans the regular promises,plans & change they usually talk of,both Obama and Mccain have chosen their running mates. Obama has shown great responsibility in choosing the perfect candidate(Joseph Biden) who would be just a heartbeat away from presidentship . On the contrary what was Mccain thinking ?He chose Sarah Palin to be his immediate subordinate contradicting all the statements he has made in the last 6 months in the agony against Obama . His claim about Obama's thin resume,readiness to lead the country and a not so known background have just vanished in thin air owing to his choice of Sarah Palin,who herself is not the most qualified and experienced people in the republican party .

If Mccain wanted to cash in the female votes , there were quiet a few ladies who exhibit immense skill and leadership than Ms Palin herself. While the world was contemplating the popular Governer Bobby Jindal (Indian origin) be named as the vice president candidate by the republicans , the party choose to think out of the box which just turns out to be out of the mind.Also republicans were always known to add to their count with the family values votes ,how is Ms Palin going to justify her 17 yr old daughter being 5 month pregnant as any legitimate family value .The republicans are bogged with an uphill task which seems to be climbing the everest without an end. While I sincerely hope for a close fought battle ,I would eagerly await the result of this bout,as our country's interests also lies in this thrilling race.
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Facts for the day :


1.Burz dubai - to be the tallest building
2.Murali deodar- Petrolium minister
3.Subba Rao - next RBI governer - 3 yrs term
4.Meghalaya cm - Ibobi singh
5.Google's new web brower - chrome
6.Thailand PM - Samak Sundaravej
7.Som Mittal - president NASCOMM(National association of software and services comission)
national film awards 2k6 - Dilip kumar (LA award), priyamani- best actress,soumitra chatterjee(best actor) ,konkana sen (best supporting actress)
8.Shrine board land issue - btw Shri Amarnath Yatra Sangharsh Samiti & the j &k government.( soon a write up on this issue)

Gustav---> a poltical campaign or a human crisis ?

It would be an irony to associate the Gustav with a political situation, hitherto thats how the world's largest democracy would step forward and define it as. As Gustav gears up to be the Successor to the Katrina, the alarming situation has much provoked a political debate which even President George Bush would be contemplating to overcome as he strives to witness the dawn of his government.Crisis Management would pave its way to a political campaign which was unheard of till date.
Ask the republicans who have supposedly called for 'ceasefire' and have asked for the nation to respond to the gustav as one unit. The political implications of this strategy seem too far stretched.While Mccain quotes " He would be the first to hit the soil of the affected areas unlike George bush during katrina who was on a holiday and was running 2 days behind the Katrina - which by then had given up in the wait for our man.

Mccain's moral support and physical presence at the location - does it do any good to a nation which would be thriving for Relief at that time. Except for a few photo shoots and media attention ,Mccain being present at the affected locations would only call for attention rather than action. Remember the firefighters(group which extended a helping hand at the time of Katrina),their first task was to stand beside Bush for a photo shoot when they arrived at the location.Sad,but thats the obstinate ground reality.

In 2005, the response to the Katrina was astronomically different than the one now, This time around the preparations seem to be in place.People have been moved from Louisiana-thanks to the mode of transport available and relief assistance groups which are ready to fight the raging battle with the Gustav. All this for the power which is up for grabs.The democrats for sure are not lagging in this race, though they have maintained a low profile on this issue so far, Obama might be composing another political note on parallel lines as that of Republicans. Cynics like me would view this as 'political chess', the end sufferer of this battle is the human pawn while the administrative troop stays safe and tailors another strategy. I wish to to be proved wrong this time.