The concept of friendship is definitely flawed.. U can have thousands around you.. but none to fall back upon. Life at 4 am can reveal a lot of things and it did to me. I realized over sometime now that at the end of the day,I absoutely have none to share my thoughs. I'm like a volcano who wants to erupt but for wot/whom/where? well there is no point anymore.. Friends claim to b a part of both ur good & bad times but the truth is they only associate with your good times,during your bad times they cant help.Bad times- can generate 3 kinda of friends :
1.Type 1 - Act that he/she felt bad that you are in problems,wud try to console you for not more than 10 mins,wud throw sad emoticon smileys at max ,I guess even if they are informed that you are dead these friends wud only feel bad for just 10 mins.
2. Type 2- I have problems too,( this kind of friend sucks! The essence was to share here.. not to compare..)
3. Type 3- Makes u feel that ur problems are not problems.. and u r whining..
Other angles to this story is
when ur friends are in good times,they may decide to forget you (subconsciously), ur a taken for 'granted commodity'..
When your friends are in bad times and decide not to tell u.consider yourself a bad friend too.
Well I use to confide to few select friends in my life, but by now I know that they are bored too.. and the rest of the world thinks
that I have no problems and I can solve all problems if any.To all of u : 'Middlefinger is wot u deserve.I'm not even going to reveal my definition
of friendship cuz I always get it wrong.
Ur definition of 'friends' whether u accept or not is simple and is as below :
"I have gr8 friends..but I have new friends who are equally gr8 .. Ofcourse I love my old friends but then I dont have enuf time for them.. I cant
seem to b coming out of my new world.."
By this time the Old world may have decayed, I type this at a time when I needed friends the most..but now I have realized that I dont want any, and I know I'm going to walk alone for a long long time..
I guess after 25 yrs,I have finally decided not to quesiton the reasons why a person wud become a drug addict.. I kinda get it now.. though I wud personally never resort to such practices but I probably get the essence by now.
I wonder as to why I even need a phone anymore,to talk to my momentary friends-campus is not that big .. I can communicate with them anytime..for the rest,it is immaterial.Wearing my dark shades and moving to a new phase in life..(Walk alone is the new mantra).
